here is a meme where i have 20 things to say to dudes and chicks! if you are a dude or chick there is a possibility you are mentioned!

1. i'm maybe a little madly in love with you.
2. i still feel like whatever we were meant something. i hope you didn't.
3. i didn't want it to be this way either, you know.
4. you need to grow the fuck up. it's getting to the point where this shit isn't cute.
5. your opinion matters to me more than i would ever be comfortable with having you know.
6. i really liked you, then i really hated you, and now you're just there.
7. i just realized you might actually make something out of your life despite yourself, and that's a little sexy.
8. i always thought you were really cool, but you were an ass to me. it's great that you're not anymore, but i feel like a pushover for forgetting about it.
9. sometimes i'm afraid you're friends with me because i'm good for a backup source of plans.
10. you really hurt me, but i can't hate you forever. that's letting you have more influence on me than you'd ever deserve.
11. i wonder about you sometimes. do you even remember me?
12. i wasted way too much time with you. you weren't worth it.
13. you're a pretty cool dude! sometimes i wish i could get the chance to know you better.
14. i'd feel better if i never saw you again. you're a reminder of how stupid i was and how shitty my judgement used to be.
15. you're the best example i can think up of how girls can get by on looks alone and honestly believe they have a decent personality.
16. you creep me the fuck out.
17. you're the one person, out of everyone who i've felt injured by, whom i honestly don't think deserves the slightest bit of happiness.
18. it's too bad you're too fucking cool for me now. i thought we were friends, i guess you just wanted someone to listen to you complain.
19. i've changed more than you can see.
20. the fact that we don't talk anymore depresses me, if i think about it...which i generally don't.

at times like these i sit back and suddenly realize, oh, that's why i don't have any friends.

it's cool, though. i'm not going to change for people to like me. that's just...n-not how i roll?

you know what sucks?

when you're depressed or stressed or pissed, and you write something bad about yourself on the internet, something horrible and self-deprecating that maybe you don't even believe but it fits your awful mood at the time.
then you feel a little better, later, until someone mentions it...
...implying that they agree.

and the only reason i'm posting this on xanga is because less people read it, and this is not one of those passive-aggressive attempts to tell a person i'm pissed off at them by coating it in vague terms. i try not to do those much, since i'm in a phase of finding them distasteful.

but i sort of had to write this somewhere, because goddamn, it hurts like hell.

villanova is secretly training its students for lent. why else would those chicken fingers have tasted so much like fish?

i'm so totally on to you, villanova.

i think that sometimes things go wrong with my thought processes.

like when i am sitting here and say to myself: "okay! i have just returned home from the library, where i have watched a movie for irish film. there is a one-page paper due on it tomorrow, so i must think of a subject to respond to in said film. it is already getting pretty late, and the movie will only fade from my memory if i delay writing this paper. so i think the best thing here to do is...
...play the saxophone."